Everything happens for a reason. And for a reason 9 months ago I decided to move back to my hometown. On one hand, I was fed up with big city life, and all the distressing memories that were haunting me wherever I’d go. I needed a break. On the other hand, I felt I should […]
Writer’s block or too much work? Or both? Something has stopped me from writing. Seems to me like thoughts in my head were way too incomprehensible to be shared with others. I took some off to think. To observe what was there inside me. A lot of difficult reflections and a few surprising conclusions. Most […]
Today is one of those days when your head feels heavier, eyes more sensitive. Maybe it’s the wine yesterday or just tiredness of the long working week. The usual thing I’d do in the past was to sit with a pen and write as many “depressive poems”, as I call them, as I could. Today […]
Brazen it out, brazen it out, deny it, delude yourself. Whatever you do, but the problem will still be there. I’ve sat at the computer with an attempt to write about the disconnectedness from feelings that is so common nowadays, denying the truth, fearing to fight for what you love, etc. While I was trying […]
“I must have been a very unhappy person”, I thought yesterday while listening to the birds singing outside. I wasn’t aware of so many beautiful things happening around me. I was too focused on myself, my suffering and pain. I had a good reason for that, but somehow I got lost in my thoughts so […]
(November 2016) Morning reflections. Something has changed. In me, I guess. Dancing no longer helps, nor does the alcohol. I eat, I drink, I sleep, I go to work. Everything seems to be automatic, though. Days go by, Mondays, Tuesdays, Wednesdays… I hardly notice. Thoughts in my head. Thousands of thoughts per minute. None […]
Winding roads are there To prepare us better For our destination ❤
(December 2016) Dear Soulmate, What a relief that I finally met you. I was slowly losing hope whether it would ever happen. But it did. It happened so unpredictably that I got lost and scared, at first. I thought I was unable to fall for someone so truly and deeply. And when I felt that […]
Excerpt from “On the Pursuit of Happiness”.
Dear Friend, I hope all is well It must be for I haven’t heard from you for ages If it were the opposite I’d now be reading monologues of complaints about how the world’s unfair I’m writing just to let you know, though, that if you ever need me if things get worse I’ll be […]
