(November 2016)   Morning reflections.   Something has changed.  In me, I guess. Dancing no longer helps, nor does the alcohol. I eat, I drink, I sleep, I go to work. Everything seems to be automatic, though. Days go by, Mondays, Tuesdays, Wednesdays… I hardly notice. Thoughts in my head. Thousands of thoughts per minute. None […]

Ironically, when you long for love and attention of this one particular person very often you don’t get anything from them. That makes you sad and disappointed. You blame yourself for this, you believe that you aren’t good enough to receive their love. You starve yourself, hurt yourself physically. You believe that when you disappear, […]