The next morning was a bit chilly. Although it was mid-December, it was raining heavily the whole night. The sky was overcast. No chances to see the sun. Despite feeling the heaviness after the moving in my muscles, I woke up pretty early. I noticed it immediately. The familiar symptoms. "Oh God, no. Please let... Continue Reading →
Everything happens for a reason. And for a reason 9 months ago I decided to move back to my hometown. On one hand, I was fed up with big city life, and all the distressing memories that were haunting me wherever I'd go. I needed a break. On the other hand, I felt I should... Continue Reading →
Writer's block or too much work? Or both? Something has stopped me from writing. Seems to me like thoughts in my head were way too incomprehensible to be shared with others. I took some off to think. To observe what was there inside me. A lot of difficult reflections and a few surprising conclusions. Most... Continue Reading →
Brazen it out, brazen it out, deny it, delude yourself. Whatever you do, but the problem will still be there. I've sat at the computer with an attempt to write about the disconnectedness from feelings that is so common nowadays, denying the truth, fearing to fight for what you love, etc. While I was trying... Continue Reading →
Whenever I come across any article about healing from traumatic experiences, their authors stress the importance of accepting and forgiving; both yourself and the person who hurt you. According to various specialists, that's the most difficult part of the healing process. Lately, I've been having flashbacks of events from my life that I thought were... Continue Reading →
(02/04/19) I'll sleep calm at night For I know that If it was The last day Of my life I did my best Today To make it count I did everything To not regret The things undone For this I'll sleep calm at night
(02/04/19) I set myself free From all obligations I believed I had to fulfill I owe nothing to no one I did my best I no longer push myself I no longer force anything I set myself free From the burden Of dying to know what's next to come © Lusessita Kingsley
There's an extremely thin line Between love and hatred And I've been wondering for a while Whether I'd already crossed it Or if I'm still walking blind Waiting to be elated © Lusessita Kingsley
and yetthis mere thoughtof giving upmakes me feelso disgustedmakes me feelso horrified and yetsome thingsare unavoidableI've waited way too longfor you to show upfor you to come along and yetit's shamefulthat I'll settle fora man who will only talk too mucha man who can onlydo so little I don't want to be on my own... Continue Reading →
It's time for meto be rewardedfor all the loveI've givenand never gotten any in return It's time for me to be rewardedfor all the painI've sufferedbut never askedfor any of it It's time for me to be rewarded for all the lonelinessI've encounteredand ever since carried with me It's time for meto be rewardedfor the darknessI've acquaintedbut never wantedto... Continue Reading →
Lusessita Kingsley 