It’s time for meto be rewardedfor all the loveI’ve givenand never gotten any in return It’s time for me to be rewardedfor all the painI’ve sufferedbut never askedfor any of it It’s time for  me to be rewarded for all the lonelinessI’ve encounteredand ever since carried with me It’s time for meto be rewardedfor the darknessI’ve acquaintedbut never wantedto […]

(27/09/2017) I closed my eyes. The sun rays – gently dancing on my eyelids creating colorful light spectacles. “So this is it”, I thought. I looked through the window. The cars – slowly passing by and the leaves subtly hovering in the air “So this is it”, I thought. © Lusessita Kingsley 2018

(05/10/2017) 2 a.m. I woke up to see you’re awake, too. Scared of what you might do I stay silent. “I was thinking about you”, you said. I knew.   2.30 a.m. Thoughts in my head, they make me blue. Confused of what to do I stay hesitant. “I don’t want to fight no more”, you […]

Ironically, when you long for love and attention of this one particular person very often you don’t get anything from them. That makes you sad and disappointed. You blame yourself for this, you believe that you aren’t good enough to receive their love. You starve yourself, hurt yourself physically. You believe that when you disappear, […]