(November 2016) Morning reflections. Something has changed. In me, I guess. Dancing no longer helps, nor does the alcohol. I eat, I drink, I sleep, I go to work. Everything seems to be automatic, though. Days go by, Mondays, Tuesdays, Wednesdays… I hardly notice. Thoughts in my head. Thousands of thoughts per minute. None … More On the Pursuit of Happiness. Part Six.
Excerpt from “On the Pursuit of Happiness”.
Disappointments are always so awful tasting. They so hard to swallow and the bitter aftertaste stays in your mouth for long. Every time, no matter what happened. These are all the broken expectations, lost hopes and failures. These are the moments of hopelessness, despair and grief. They always follow great anticipation, hope and excitement. They’re … More Journal of less important matters. (29/09/2018)
My little hollow. My little hollow. It’s how I talk about that place. My favorite hollow. My 22m2, no more. My very first apartment. Just on my own. And just round the corner of one of the most popular squares in the city. When I think about that place there was nothing special about it. … More On the Pursuit of Happiness. Five.
(November 2016) On Lost and Found The peculiar thing about life is that when you care much about something, very often this thing vanishes or is totally unavailable for you. It’s the same with people. You care much about someone and they just take this for granted. But because you care so much, you try not … More On the Pursuit of Happiness. Part Four.
Because when I looked into your eyes I saw the Universe glowing in million of colors. It was that simple. Your eyes, two black diamonds reflecting the light beams; they had all the answers. The yearning gaze following my every move and gesture. The tender smile on your face when I approach you. The sweetness of your … More Journal of less important matters (26/08/2018)
(November 2016) Forever single? I didn’t tell my friends about my decision to move to the island. I knew their reaction too well. “Are you crazy?”, “What are you going to do there?”, “This is stupid, you have such a good life here.” and so on. I knew it. I mentioned once or twice that … More On the Pursuit of Happiness. Part 3.
Ironically, when you long for love and attention of this one particular person very often you don’t get anything from them. That makes you sad and disappointed. You blame yourself for this, you believe that you aren’t good enough to receive their love. You starve yourself, hurt yourself physically. You believe that when you disappear, … More Journal of less important matters (24/08/2018)
(November 2016) The actual beginnings. My first difficulty came when I arrived to the place I was supposed to live. It was a house I was sharing with the local people living in the town I chose to settle for the start. I couldn’t relate to them at all. Their way of acting, manners and … More On the Pursuit of Happiness. Part Two.
Sunday reflections over a cup of coffee It’s Sunday. As usual, I’m sitting with a cup of coffee and thinking the things over. The recent months were pretty hard for me. There were a lot of disappointing moments, heartbreaks, lost chances and disillusionments. Back then, I really thought I couldn’t have been suffering more. It … More Journal of less important matters (08/09/2017)