Everything happens for a reason. And for a reason 9 months ago I decided to move back to my hometown. On one hand, I was fed up with big city life, and all the distressing memories that were haunting me wherever I’d go. I needed a break. On the other hand, I felt I should […]
This morning was quite slow and lazy. I didn’t have any errands to run, nothing urgent to arrange. I decided on a little lie-in. I like such cosy mornings. Wrapped up in bed linen, I was watching trees gently dancing in the wind outside. I imagined how it’d be if we were together then… I […]
/13/07/2019/ The night when I met you…The world ceased to exist. It was like a thunderbolt from heaven. You lit up the place. I couldn’t take my eyes off you.I’d secretly peep on you, trying to check whether you were interested in me as well.That night. It was something I’d never experienced. Those sparkles, the […]
I believe that love is happiness. True love puts smile on your face, gives you this pleasant feeling of warmth in your stomach, puts you at ease, gives you energy to act. Love feels good, gentle, easy. If you get stressed or experience strange sensation in your stomach, or your hands start to shake, this […]
I had a dream last night. The old house was falling down. The mice were gnawing holes in the floor. The od cats were sleeping. The young one drew near me. The Tarot reading showed a card “Death”. This is the end, this is the end. And I love to see the old house collapse […]
Today is one of those days when your head feels heavier, eyes more sensitive. Maybe it’s the wine yesterday or just tiredness of the long working week. The usual thing I’d do in the past was to sit with a pen and write as many “depressive poems”, as I call them, as I could. Today […]
We live in very strange times. Times when having feelings, being emotional is considered anomaly. When you show your emotions, be it anger, happiness or grief, they call you a fool maladjusted to living in modern society. As if having emotions was something bad. Who and when decided that we must follow the mind, be […]
Brazen it out, brazen it out, deny it, delude yourself. Whatever you do, but the problem will still be there. I’ve sat at the computer with an attempt to write about the disconnectedness from feelings that is so common nowadays, denying the truth, fearing to fight for what you love, etc. While I was trying […]
/15/06/2019/ Last night she died. So don’t look for her in the places where she used to stay. She won’t be there. She took the last sip of life And walked away. Back to the grave. I won’t miss her. This ghost haunted me, Tried to kill me alive Tried to suck my energy out. […]
/22/04/19/ I’m not upset Nor am I angry Sad? No, that’s gone since long ago But I do have some certain feelings I’ve been like that For quite a while Look at me and see it I miss you I long your soft embrace I crave to hear your gentle voice Learn to read My […]
