Brazen it out, brazen it out, deny it, delude yourself. Whatever you do, but the problem will still be there. I’ve sat at the computer with an attempt to write about the disconnectedness from feelings that is so common nowadays, denying the truth, fearing to fight for what you love, etc. While I was trying […]

Brian Carter was an aspiring lawyer. He was in his thirties, but due to his unquestionable talent and skills, he soon became one of the experts in the field. His wit, sharp mind, dedication and diligence had led him up in his career at a very fast pace. At the age of 30, he became […]

(November 2016)   Morning reflections.   Something has changed.  In me, I guess. Dancing no longer helps, nor does the alcohol. I eat, I drink, I sleep, I go to work. Everything seems to be automatic, though. Days go by, Mondays, Tuesdays, Wednesdays… I hardly notice. Thoughts in my head. Thousands of thoughts per minute. None […]

Ironically, when you long for love and attention of this one particular person very often you don’t get anything from them. That makes you sad and disappointed. You blame yourself for this, you believe that you aren’t good enough to receive their love. You starve yourself, hurt yourself physically. You believe that when you disappear, […]