(12/04/19) I’m afraid the decision has been made. After all this time of struggling inside. After all the tears soaked in a pillow. After all the pain I suffered alone. After all the nerves I lost too frequently. After all that I finally made up my mind. I love you and will always do.

(02/04/19) I set myself free From all obligations I believed I had to fulfill I owe nothing to no one I did my best I no longer push myself I no longer force anything I set myself free From the burden Of dying to know what’s next to come © Lusessita Kingsley

I was sitting in a bar Slowly sipping wine Trying to have fun When I met your ebony eyes You were dressed in white Talking at the bar Entwined with the light When I first saw your smile It came as a surprise Don’t think I romaticize You got me mesmerized I totally fell for […]

There’s an extremely thin line Between love and hatred And I’ve been wondering for a while Whether I’d already crossed it Or if I’m still walking blind Waiting to be elated © Lusessita Kingsley

(13/01/2019) Thank you for your silence when I needed to be talked to I learned to listen to myself I learned my voice is powerful Thank you for your absence When I needed someone to hug I learned to comfort myself on my own I learned self-sufficency Thank you for your indifference When I needed […]

and yetthis mere thoughtof giving upmakes me feelso disgustedmakes me feelso horrified and yetsome thingsare unavoidableI’ve waited way too longfor you to show upfor you to come along and yetit’s shamefulthat I’ll settle fora man who will only talk too mucha man who can onlydo so little I don’t want to be on my own […]

It’s time for meto be rewardedfor all the loveI’ve givenand never gotten any in return It’s time for me to be rewardedfor all the painI’ve sufferedbut never askedfor any of it It’s time for  me to be rewarded for all the lonelinessI’ve encounteredand ever since carried with me It’s time for meto be rewardedfor the darknessI’ve acquaintedbut never wantedto […]