Something has changed. In me, I guess. Dancing no longer helps, nor does the alcohol.
I eat, I drink, I sleep, I go to work. Everything seems to be automatic, though. Days go by, Mondays, Tuesdays, Wednesdays… I hardly notice.
Thoughts in my head. Thousands of thoughts per minute. None seems to be the right one.
I got stuck.
I don’t know which way to choose. The one I decided on doesn’t seem to be leading me anywhere. Rather dragging me away from what I really want deep down in my heart.
But I can’t see any turn nor can I go back. So I continue.
My heart is crying.
No. This is not what I wanted but I don’t know how to change it.
Coffee’s got cold.
I strongly feel your absence.
© Lusessita Kingsley 2018