On the Pursuit of Happiness. Part Six.

(November 2016)

Morning reflections.

Something has changed.  In me, I guess. Dancing no longer helps, nor does the alcohol.

I eat, I drink, I sleep, I go to work. Everything seems to be automatic, though. Days go by, Mondays, Tuesdays, Wednesdays… I hardly notice.

Thoughts in my head. Thousands of thoughts per minute. None seems to be the right one.

I got stuck.

I don’t know which way to choose. The one I decided on doesn’t seem to be leading me anywhere. Rather dragging me away from what I really want deep down in my heart.

But I can’t see any turn nor can I go back. So I continue.

Coffee.

Memories.

My heart is crying.

No. This is not what I wanted but I don’t know how to change it.

Coffee’s got cold.

I strongly feel your absence.

© Lusessita Kingsley 2018